Thursday, December 31, 2009

A new dawn, a new day, a new decade

On a cold night in 1999, I rang in the new millenium drinking champagne in a hot tub with friends in Quebec City. Fast forward 10 years later and my drink of choice tonight will be a near beer with the in-laws. As for the hot tub,-they are a no-no in my world these days.

Here we are, December 31st, 2009. I almost cannot believe that an entire decade has gone by (my entire 20's... GULP). At the same time, when I think back to all that I have accomplished since "Y2K" it feels much longer. I had some of the greatest years of my life. I finished university and college, met friends who will be with me forever and attended some parties that will be talked about until I am old and grey. I travelled to Africa, Asia, Europe and Canada, met and married my amazing husband, bought my very first house, got my first full time job, my second one, 3rd one and got my very own puppy.
My 20's have been good. Actually, they have been great.
2009 has been a tough year. It was like that 8th grade math teacher who taught you so much but you still didn't really like him. This year kept me in the dark for so long and then told me to wait and wait some more (Not the easiest of tasks for an impatient person).
Tomorrow I start my suprefact injections. If all goes well, by this time next month, I will have 1 or 2 little embyros growing inside me. For this reason, I can't help but be filled with an extraordinary sense of optimism on the eve of this new decade. I know some infertility vets don't like to make promises to themselves like "I will get pregnant in 2010!" so I will just say that I hope 2010 is going to be a good year. I have learned so much about myself in this past year and past decade that I am ready to face whatever challenge comes my way. Deep down in my heart I do believe that I will get pregnant this year.  Hope-it's what keeps me going.