Wednesday, September 30, 2009

Nothing comes easy

I thought today was going to be easier.

*Jessica* finally had her baby. I say finally because I have known about her pregnancy since day one. As in 20 minutes after she peed on a stick and told her husband, I knew.

I thought today would be great because finally Jessica is no longer pregnant. I have watched her baby bump grow weekly,attended the showers, listened to girlfriends gooing and gawing over lamb flannel sheets from Pottery Barn all the while reminding myself that when today arrived I would have a sense of relief. Not so.

When I received the email with all the specs: weight, time of birth, length, photo of baby boy, I cried. I cried a bit with happiness for my friend Jessica but mostly, I cried for me. I feel like a mean person.

As it turns out, Jessica no longer being pregnant means she is a mom. 16 months after we started trying, there she is ..a mom and I am nowhere close to even being pregnant.

I have been thinking about this blog for some time now. Today seemed like as good a time as any to get started. Welcome to our world of facing infertility and joining us on this roller coaster. We are embarking on our first IVF cycle this winter and are scared and excited all at once. This is our little space to vent, cry, learn and hopefully one day soon, share our joy of becoming parents.